
ok, i'm back, but still in trouble... what's the matter with me... ammmmm... just feel unfree... you know, mental but not crazy... damn!
sometimes i see through the window pane and tell myself what is the future career i wish to have. as well as climbing up the hill i worked hard, but suddenly i stopped and found it was not enough for me to get the end of my point. then i doubted all of my life... i thought i lost something worthful, likes friendship over the daytime, or some messages to each, in one word these "somethings" would set people to the comfortable interpersonal relationship. the worse is i think i'm careless of them.
like the song sings: "lonely, i'm mister lonely, i have nobody for my own....", doesn't it? last weekend my uncle said to me: "you should have your own cycles." maybe he was right~ totally!